Sigh

In a house I've never seen before, I had a dream of my own failure and incompetence .

Late Night Edit: For the sake of this being a true preservation of my dreams, time to divulge more information. The house is unfamiliar and large. I stay with a friend I do not talk to often, but who's company I enjoy (DA). Details on prior actions are already lost to me but I vividly remember being ridiculed by my sister for my terrible performance. She continues to chant on my inability. This frustrates me and angers me greatly. I lose my self to rage and respond physically violent, while reassuring her that somewhere I have a chance for myself. During my assault she continues to laugh and mock my failure.

Later I meet with two friends (AMC/AG) who are playing tennis around the house for whatever reason. I think at this time I'm with and talking to my father. The rest of this dream is already lost to me.

I find it important to keep myself reassured in believing that if there is something I really want to do or achieve, that I can if I actually become serious about it. Failure to sustain this would probably result in a complete loss of myself. Thus, I live on; with absolute certainty.